A Cold and Broken Hallelujah

And love is not a victory march... more

by Adrian Borda

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Dimensions

40.000 x 32.000 cm.

Title

A Cold and Broken Hallelujah

Artist

Adrian Borda

Medium

Painting - Oil On Wood Panel

Description

And love is not a victory march
It's a cold and it's a broken Hallelujah

Most people do the same routine every day, drive the same routes to work, shopping, eat similar meals, have the same discussions and inner thoughts, satisfying addictions, and generally don’t realize how much time is passing by without meaningful progress.
I see them as loops, unconscious cycles that repeat all our life until we became aware of them and decide to break them, usually into an evolutionary spiral, yet some see the suicide as the only way out. It might end into a loop with higher energy, or we might not have enough energy to sustain it, and return to the old loop, trying to quit an addiction might be a good example.
All out biological processes are cyclical, most of them are governed by hormones and parts of the brain that we better not be touch our light of consciousness, would be quite tragic to forget a few heartbeats. Others, like respiration are semi-autonomous, and being aware of it can be a tool to be one step ahead of the compulsive thinking addiction that starts unconscious, most thoughts, specially the negative ones are as a reaction to deny the present moment. We create in out mind simulations with different situations that can change the situation we are in, mind behaves most of the time as a defense mechanism. In simulations we form an ego, an idea of what we are that we identify with, and we fight with our shadow projections. In this way each thought that forms our ego can be seen as an reincarnation, a small dramatic episode on our inner movie.
Very interesting is the sexual part of the loop, when the rhythmic movements reduce the reality to loops of intense sensations that last fractions of a second, leading to a trance state in which you lose yourself and which may be the beginning of a new life cycle, and makes parents enter into a very stable loop with immense conditioning and responsibilities that are carefully transmitted to the new one.
Mental loops are conditioned by instincts and social conditioning. Only awareness can change something in out life, we might see it as the divine spark in us, that give us the possibility to create a new inner universe with the help of the word, that can be seen as an inner programming, a mark to guide us in the evolutionary path. Living in sin means missing the mark, living in an oblivious loop of instinct, and having a meaningless existence can be one of the saddest revelations.

And being election year in US, I should dedicate this painting to the poor ones, the ones that cannot escape poverty thanks to a corrupt system brought by sociopath billionaires. Is hard to imagine that the three richest people in the world possess more financial assets than the lowest 48 nations combined...

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June 24th, 2020